28 August 2014

Art: Loki

I got in to my head that I wanted to draw Erin something for her birthday, as she's coming to visit this weekend. She loves Tom Hiddleston (husband, cover your eyes!) even more than I do, so Loki it was. 

I hope she enjoys him! I've got to run into town to get a frame today...


26 August 2014

Happy Place: Literary Acquisitions

While running some errands with Aryeh, I decided to pop into Half-Price Books to see if I could fluff out our library as usual. Every week, we go to Half-Price Books and bring home a load of books. I feel kind of bad... Before Aviva was born, I had asked Josh to sell a lot of the books that we had (the collection was absurdly enormous). At the time, I figured we can go digital for a lot of this stuff, namely our comic books and most novels, and we can keep the really obscure stuff. It was the whole "move everything to the iPad" time. We definitely wouldn't have been able to move them out here, but I still feel bad nonetheless. Since we've moved here, I've been filling out our shelves.

I realized that during my "eh, go digital" phase (which by the way, I quickly abandoned. There's nothing like a physical book ESPECIALLY ON SHABBOS) I downloaded a lot of the YA and Sci-Fi fantasy novels I was reading. When Stephanie recommeded Daughter of Smoke and Bone, I started reading it (it had distracted me from yet another good book!) but I never finished it (having been obviously distracted by another book. So here I am, full circle. I've bought myself some Laini Taylor to fill my bleak waiting period until Blue Lily, Lily Blue comes out on October 21, 2014. Oh Maggie Stiefvater, why do you do this to me, with your vivid characters, so lively I could reach out to grab them?

Due to my natural inclination for all things steampunk, I figured I may as well finally read Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare. When Stephanie and I were in high school, we read her Draco Trilogy novel length fan fiction with fervor. Now look at her. Earlier this month after I had a listless, moping spell after finishing the The Raven Boys and The Dream Thieves,  I needed something of interest to catch me and it did. I'm very nearly finished with Clockwork Angel, so I also bought Clockwork Prince. I am a happy girl. 

25 August 2014

The Peace of the Wild Things

The Peace of the Wild Things

When despair for the world grows in me
and I wake in the night at the least sound
in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
I go and lie down where the wood drake
rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
I come into the peace of wild things
who do not tax their lives with forethought
of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
And I feel above me the day-blind stars
waiting with their light. For a time
I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

— Wendell Berry 


Behind our shul is a swath of foresty growth that splits between our small town and the next. It goes on for a mile or two along the town and looks like it's brimming with magic. I would love to live up against that foresty hill.

Before I had children, I would go in hunt of lovely places in nature where I could be free and at peace just like in this poem. I suppose the whole watching your kids diligently thing sort of kills the mood! But I really hope that someday I can find the peace and patience to breathe that way again.

18 August 2014

Nursery, a shift in our family day

Today was Vivi's first day of nursery school and she was so very prepared and psyched! For the past two weeks I've been sad about it in a kind of up and down way. I realized that my three year-old baby was going to be out of the house from 7:15 to 3:00 five days a week. It sounds like much too much... but she was so happy and normal and not stir crazy. 

Sometimes it's hard to hit all of the right notes for all three of us when we are home or out together. I get burnt out and feel like I'm not doing enough to stimulate her. When it was just me and Vivi, she got so much dedicated play time and education time and patience. Aryeh got none of this. Just one day and I can already feel the difference for all of us. Sometimes I wouldn't go to the basement to do the laundry because that meant fighting everyone into their shoes, dragging everybody down, keeping them both out of trouble and out of the crazy stuff down there. But the perspective of doing it with one... It was so easy! It was so happy and fun, counting a stairs (today he started counting to five!), and looking around the spooky basement calmly, just me and Aryeh. It showed me doing things with both of them doesn't have to be stressful. Really, what's one more to the errand?

Vivi was so sweet in her owl "packpack" and braids. I felt so much more at peace today at home that I  had in a long time. All I wanted to do was squeeze more information about Vivi's day out of her (she was more interested in eating and I don't blame her). After a couple of months of school, I wonder if I'll reassess how I feel about the length of the day, but she certainly seems happy.

And really, that happy face is all the matters.